I fiddle around with myself
Sometimes I'm sooo bored. Ilja is working and there's no cock in sight. Then I lie down on the bed, take off my clothes and have really wet thoughts. Do you know what I'm like? I finger myself, my fingers slide into my vagina, into my anus and I rub myself. Oh, if only there was a real man there in this situation. There's no substitute for the real thing.